Robert Bly once wrote that failure is a necessary part of the life of any man, and over many years and many failures I’ve come to see that he was right. Failure is freeing, failure is bracing. Failure makes you alive. I now understand, in fact, that my life and career have followed a distinct pattern:
Success. Complacency. Failure. Struggle. Breakthrough. Success.
It started in film school, when I landed my first TV writing job -- and wrote the script in a haze of self-congratulation -- only to find that the producers hated it. Failure number one. I then spent several years in despair, hustling for jobs on bad television shows, realizing finally that I was failing because I wasn’t writing in my own voice. That was the first time I felt that sense of unexpected exhilaration when your back is against the wall and you discover you have courage after all. With nothing to lose, I renounced my career as a TV writer and wrote a screenplay. In my own voice. And everything changed. People loved the script, studios offered deals. I was made. Until I failed again, and had to find the courage again to write from my authentic self. And the result this time was “thirtysomething”, from whose success I assumed finally! I must be immune to failure. Until my first film as a director bombed and the process had to begin again.
And so it has continued, for thirty years. I welcome the rhythm now, the struggle, the renewal, the euphoria, and yes, even the despair because I understand that this is the rhythm of art, of life. Failure is not the opposite of success they’re part of the same thing. The opposite of failure is death.
Marshall Herskovitz is a film director, writer, producer and president of the Producers Guild of America. www.producedbyconference.com/marshall_herskovitz.html